Emma struggled to fit in at university

Updated: May 06, 2010, 14:24 PM IST

Los Angeles: Emma Watson hated her first week of university in the US as she thought she didn`t fit in with the other students.

The 20-year-old actress, who plays Hermione Granger in the wizard franchise, enrolled in Rhode Island`s prestigious Brown University last year and admitted that she was worried about being ostracised by her fellow classmates, reported Vanity Fair magazine online.

"(The first week) was just awful. I was like, `I must be mad. Why am I doing this?` I was scared before I came to Brown that I wasn`t going to be allowed to have both (a career
and a normal life)," said Watson.

"People would think that I didn`t deserve to have both. (I was afraid they`d think), `You`re famous. You`re given free handbags. Why should you deserve to be normal?`" she added.

But the British actress soon found her place – and even joined in the college fun by attending a fraternity party.

"I felt like I`d walked into an American teen movie. I picked up the red cups. I was like, `Wow, they really do drink from these`," she said.