Los Angeles: `Prison Break` star Wentworth Miller has revealed that his efforts to conceal his sexual orientation led to multiple suicide attempts.
The 41-year-old actor, who came out as gay earlier in August while taking a public stand against Russia`s alleged anti-gay policies, first tried to kill himself at the age of 15, reported Ace Showbiz.
"Every day was a test and there was a thousand ways to fail. A thousand ways to portray yourself to not live up to someone else`s standards of what was accepted and what was normal. And when you fail the test, which was guaranteed, there was a price to pay. Emotional, psychological. Physical," Miller said.
"And like many of you I paid that price. The first time I tried to kill myself I was 15. I waited until my family went away for the weekend and I was alone in the house and I swallowed a bottle of pills. I don`t remember what happened over the next couple days, but I`m pretty sure come Monday morning I was on a bus back to school pretending everything was fine," he added.
Miller reveals that he kept it private because he was was apprehensive of public`s reaction.
"I had multiple opportunities to speak my truth, which is that I was gay, but I chose not to. I was out privately to family and friends -- publicly, I was not. I chose to lie -- when I thought about the possibility of coming out, how that might impact me and the career I worked so hard for, I was filled with fear," he said.
The actor, however, decided to come out through an open letter after declining an invitation to Russia`s St Petersburg Film Festival because of the country`s conservative stand on homosexuality.