Los Angeles: Actress Michelle Rodriguez says she went through an emotional upheaval after the demise of her "Fast and Furious" co-star Paul Walker in 2013.
Walker died in a car accident. He was just 40. The 36-year-old actress said she tried to "ignore" the pain she was feeling after losing Walker by "travelling", reported Entertainment Weekly.
"I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit .... I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind.
"I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was travelling. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling."
Rodriguez said Walker was the "deepest guy" she knew and while she spent months trying to come to terms with the reason why he had been so cruelly taken away at the age of 40, earlier this year she told herself to stop "hiding" and started to piece herself back together.
"I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who's deep like me, who loves like that.
"When that disappears, you wonder, 'Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?' There was nothing to tether me to this existence. I just woke up (one morning) with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, 'You know what, Michelle? Stop hiding. Go manifest.' And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling," she said.