London: Devastated Cheryl Cole has confessed in an interview that 2010 has been the worst year of her life.
The ‘X Factor’ judge also revealed that the experience of her divorce from love-rat ex Ashley has battered her confidence - leaving her with no tears left to cry.
"You know what I want more than anything? Those last ten seconds on New Year’s Eve. ``10, 9, 8... 2011! I’m going to scream them,” the Sun quoted her as saying.
"I’m going to shout them out. I’m going to call everybody I love and just welcome the New Year and the new start."
Reflecting on the devastating break-up of her marriage, Cheryl went on: "I never will understand why this has happened. Never. I just don’t get it. We still talk - general stuff. Anybody that’s been through a divorce, and I hope it’s something people never have to experience, it’s the worse thing in the world. When your heart is breaking... it doesn’t make a difference what car you drive, what house you have, all of that. It’s a minor detail, it’s nothing.”
"Right now it’s still fresh, it hasn’t been long you know? It’s still raw. It does make you feel numb. I don’t recognise myself sometimes. It has been non-stop tears. Just too much."
Cheryl, who will also talk about her troubles with Piers Morgan on ITV1 show Life Stories sais: "When I talked to Piers and when this interview is done, once that’s been out and gone, I can maybe just breathe and get on with it again. "I’m getting there. "It has been the worst year, the worst in my life ever," she added.