London: Gwyneth Paltrow has opened up about her struggle with postpartum depression, saying that she felt like a "zombie" after giving birth to her second child.
The Oscar winning actress says that she was "blissful" during daughter Apple`s first few months of life in the summer of 2004. Two years later, when son Moses was born, she found herself living a nightmare, reported People magazine.
"I felt like a zombie. I couldn`t access my heart. I couldn`t access my emotions. I couldn`t connect," said the 38-year-old actress.
"It was terrible, it was the exact opposite of what had happened when Apple was born. With her, I was on cloud nine. I couldn`t believe it wasn`t the same. I just thought it meant I was a terrible mother and a terrible person," she added.
It was Paltrow`s husband, `Coldplay` frontman Chris Martin, who first thought she might be suffering from postpartum depression.
"About four months into it, Chris came to me and said, `Something`s wrong. Something`s wrong`. I kept saying, `No, no, I`m fine`. But Chris identified it, and that sort of burst the bubble," said the actress who then decided to seek medical help for her problem.