Heath Ledger has left an irreplaceable hole in my life: Michelle Williams

Updated: Jan 14, 2011, 17:53 PM IST

London: Michelle Williams has admitted that she can never fill the void late Heath Ledger has left in her life and the life of their young daughter, Matilda.

The Australian actor and Williams were no longer a couple when he died on Jan. 22 three years back, but jointly raising their daughter.

"Very obviously, for me and for her, there`s a hole in our life," a daily quoted her as telling Marie Claire in its February issue.

"Of course the natural inclination is to want to fill it and make it disappear, but what I`ve come to recently is that it`s impossible. Nothing will fit in that hole because what we want back we can`t get, which is this one person,” the actress said.

And though Williams had a short-lived romance with director Spike Jonze after Ledger`s passing, she`s in no hurry to find a new love.

"I`m not going to rush anything and scamper around like a mad person and make myself crazy. I`m trying to be respectful of [Ledger`s] absence. I’m not trying to fill it up. It is what it is,” she said.

Williams, who drew inspiration for "Blue Valentine" from her parents`` failed marriage, said she doesn`t "know what my version of a relationship or marriage is yet, because the typical model seems a little broken to me."

"At the same time, I was raised on all those princess fairy tales and I`m a romantic; I want to be a one-man girl," she added.

The former "Dawson`s Creek" star said she`s wary of making a mistake when it comes finding the right person to join her and Matilda`s lives.

"I can inflict any kind of injury on myself, but with my daughter, that`s not an option," she told the magazine.

"My poor mom really wants me to meet someone. I think she wanted to believe the Ryan Gosling rumor more than anybody,” she added.