I thought I would die, says Oksana Grigorieva

London: Hollywood star Mel Gibson`s former girlfriend Oksana Grigorieva says she taped her phone call with Gibson because she thought she wouldn`t "live through the night".

Grigorieva, who has denied being responsible for making the recordings public, said: "I started taping it around 11 o`clock because I thought I`m actually not going to live through the night. I wanted my mother to be able to prove that if I`m dead that this is who did it."

Grigorieva also explained some of her comments to him, admitting she thinks he needs "treatment" because his rants were those of a sober person, not someone under the influence of alcohol, reports contactmusic.com.

"I`ve never ever seen him drinking. That`s why I keep saying on those tapes, you need medication. He does need medication for the sake of our daughter. He needs to be treated."