Malaria-ridden Cole ‘had written her deathbed will’

Last Updated: Oct 15, 2010, 12:02 PM IST

London: Cheryl Cole wrote her deathbed will when she was on the verge of dying, she has revealed.

In an interview with Piers Morgan, the X-Factor star said that doctors told her she was on the brink of death had just a day to live.

“I thought I was going to die, I actually thought I was going to die. I thought if I’m going to die I want to die soon because I was in so much pain,” the Daily Mail quoted Cole as saying.

Cole had to miss the ‘boot camp’ stage of the current series of X Factor after falling ill with malaria in July.

The singer also talked about her recent marriage collapse with the Chelsea and England footballer Ashley.

She insisted she will ‘always love’ him and instantly broke down in tears as she said she still believed he was ‘a genuinely nice guy’.

“Once we get over this obstacle, I hope we can be friends again. A part of me will always love Ashley. Looking back on it I feel numb. We had a great marriage and a fantastic wedding day but I don’t know where it went wrong. To this day I still question that,” Cole said.

Her mother Joan and Girls Aloud bandmates Kimberley Walsh and Nicola Roberts, who all wept during the interview as she discussed her battle against the disease, joined Cole during the rendezvous.

ANI