New York: Ricky Martin has revealed that it took him years to admit his sexuality because of societal and career pressures, which made him feel ``evil`` for being gay.
The singer knows that coming out as a "fortunate homosexual man" last year was the end of a long internal conflict that left him feeling ‘evil’ for years.
"I was the sex symbol and I needed to dance and I needed to make girls crazy and I couldn`t say that I was gay," a newspaper quoted the 39-year-old singer as saying on Tuesday`s ‘Tonight Show with Jay Leno’.
Maintaining his image for the adoring women who flock to his concerts "was a lot of struggle," he said.
"If you add to that...culture, religion, society, what people say. What I was feeling, according to what I had in my mind, was evil," he added.