Los Angeles: Blink-182 drummer Travis Barker has revealed his journey of self-discovery including his battle with depression after a 2008 plane crash.
Barker got candid about his past in an interview with Billboard to promote his memoir "Can I Say", reports aceshowbiz.com.
The 39-year-old, who is currently dating singer Rita Ora, recalled his dark days in 2004, when he was facing drug addiction.
"I was so addicted to Oxycodone, and I had a security that would actually sleep during the day and then stay up at night to make sure I was breathing. That was pretty pathetic," Barker said.
"I had this moment when I got to Europe for that tour where I really identified myself as a dumpster. And I wasn't proud. I was scared. I had to call (Blink-182 member) Mark (Hoppus) and say, 'Hey, man. I'm like borderline suicidal. I'm going crazy. I need to go home,'" he added.
Barker also talked about his struggle with survivor's guilt after the plane accident.
"I was on all these crazy crazy bipolar drugs too cause I was suicidal in the hospital, masking everything from the pain of thinking, 'Are my friends dead? Do you have to amputate my foot?' I was completely done," he remembered.
He credited his children for helping him get through the depression.
"They were all I hung out with, especially afterwards. I was a little cuckoo for a minute too. I didn't leave the house. I was afraid if I left the house something would fall out of the sky and hit me. I was just waiting for some ill sh*t to happen all the time. So I just wanted to stay cooped up in the house with them until I got to my healthy state," he said.