Was forced to abort baby, Jiah Khan reveals in her ‘suicide’ note

Updated: Jun 11, 2013, 17:15 PM IST

Zee Media Bureau

New Delhi: Jiah Khan, who committed suicide at her Juhu apartment on June 3, has revealed the details of her troubled relationship with boyfriend Sooraj Pancholi in a six-page letter.

Apart from the unrequited love, she mentions that she was “increasingly scared” Sooraj would hurt her “mentally or physically.”

In one of the most startling things written in the letter, the late actress reveals that she was pregnant and was forced to abort their baby.

“The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives,” the letter says.

The amount of love Jiah had for Sooraj is evident from every single line written in the letter. She wrote “I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore.”

Apart from the abortion and the cheating, Jiah mentions that she had lost all interest in life and her career due to Sooraj.

“I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something,” she has written.

The late actress was found dead at her home when her mother and sister had gone out.