Cocaine was part of movie budgets, says Dennis Quaid

Updated: Apr 12, 2011, 14:23 PM IST

Washington: American actor Dennis Quaid has revealed that cocaine was a part of movie budgets when he first arrived in Hollywood.

The star also admitted that his greatest mistake was getting addicted to it.

The ``Soul Surfer`` actor opened up about his struggles in an interview with Newsweek, where he admitted that he began using the drug casually at first, but then found himself falling deeper into a downward spiral as a result of its prevalence in Hollywood.

"Cocaine was even in the budgets of movies, thinly disguised," Fox News quoted him as saying.

"It was petty cash, you know. It was supplied, basically, on movie sets because everyone was doing it. People would make deals. Instead of having a cocktail, you’d have a line.

"So it was insidious, the way it snuck up on everybody. Coming from where I came from - lower-middle-class life, from Houston into Hollywood - and all of a sudden this success starts happening to you, I just didn’t know how to handle that. Doing blow just contributed to me not being able to handle the fame, which, at the time, I guess I felt I didn’t deserve," he added.

Things spiraled out of control for the actor in the late 1980s, when he was filming "The Big Easy."

"I was a mess. I was getting an hour of sleep a night. I had a reputation for being a ``bad boy,`` which seemed like good thing, but basically I just had my head stuck up my ass. I’d wake up, snort a line, and swear I wasn’t going to do it again that day. But then 4 o’clock rolled around, and I’d be right back down the same road like a little squirrel on one of those treadmills."

Quaid said he entered rehab after having one of those "white-light" experiences one night, but things only became more difficult once he was sober and had to face his problems head on.

"That time in my life - those years in the ``90s recovering - actually chiseled me into a person. It gave me the resolve and a resilience to persevere in life. In the end, it taught me humility," he added.