London: Rap mogul P Diddy is a die-hard romantic but admits has always messes up in relationships because he doesn`t know how to handle them.
The 40-year-old superstar, who has five children from three relationships, regrets his romantic failures and is constantly striving to make himself a better partner, a news website reported.
"Love runs my life. When I wake up in the morning, what I do, I do for a woman. I wake up, I get dressed, I`m trying to be fly for a woman," Diddy, real name Sean Combs, said.
"I`ve been successful in a lot of things, but I haven`t been successful in the love area."I`ve been successful in a lot of things, but I haven`t been successful in the love area," he added.
Despite his romantic hopes, the rapper, whose real name is Sean Combs, thinks he is "not easy" to love and often deliberately ruins his relationships as he doesn`t know how to handle contentment.
"It`s not just me finding someone to love, that`s me loving someone back and being mature enough to sacrifice and not be selfish. I think I`ve had love there, but I don`t think I knew -and I still don`t know if I do - how to handle it," he said.
"Sometimes, when somebody is trying to give me love, I get uncomfortable. I`m not an easy person to love and that`s the thing. I`ve never been able to achieve and conquer love," Diddy added.