London: Actor Bradley Cooper has said that he did not want to win the Oscar he was nominated for `Silver Linings Playbook` at last month`s Academy Awards.
Cooper was up for the `Best Actor` accolade but he says winning an award no longer matters to him following his father`s death, reported Digital Spy.
"Death became very real. And very tangible. Because my father - someone who had been in my life for 36 years is just gone. I watched him dying and I was there by his bed watching him, breathing with him, and then I saw his last breath and he was gone.
"I experienced the whole thing. And that was a watershed moment that I was privileged to experience. And it changed everything. Nothing has ever been the same since," he said.
The 38-year-old also said that losing his father has made him less nervous about things that he cannot control.
"My father gave me two gifts - having me and dying with me. I used to be the kid that got the shakes if I had to talk in public; now, I just don`t get nervous about stuff. I can`t control everything.
"I don`t want to win an Oscar. It would change nothing. Nothing. The things in my life that aren`t fulfilled would not be fulfilled. Career-wise, right now, its better that I don`t win one. I don`t want to win. I don`t."