London: Kate Moss has revealed that she suffered a nervous breakdown as she struggled to cope with the pressures of modelling and cried for "years and years" after splitting up with Johnny Depp.
The British supermodel was discovered when she was 14 and quickly booked jobs with high-end labels.
In 1992 she shot a campaign for Calvin Klein with Mark Wahlberg, in which they were both topless and she was snuggling up to the male star – an experience that pushed her over the edge.
Although the images are what propelled her to superstardom, Kate regrets being a part of the risqué shoot.
"I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts," Moss said.
"It didn`t feel like me at all. I felt really bad straddling this buff guy. I didn`t like it.
"I couldn`t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die. I went to the doctor and he said, ``I`ll give you some Valium,`` and Francesca Sorrenti [Moss`s friend and mother of Mario Sorrenti], thank God, said, ``You`re not taking that``.
"It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There`s a massive pressure to do what you have to do.
"I was really little, and I was going to work with Steven Meisel. It was just really weird - a stretch limo coming to pick you up from work. I didn`t like it. But it was work and I had to do it."
In another early modelling assignment, Kate bared her chest for photographer Corinne Day.
The 38-year-old admits she felt pressured to strip in the racy shoot.
"I hated my boobs more than anything as a teenager. I`d do anything not to take my top off.
“But they were like, ``If you don`t do it, then we`re not going to book you again,`` she recalled.
"So I`d lock myself in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt very comfortable about it... That picture of me running down the beach - I`ll never forget doing that, because I made the hairdresser, who was the only man on the shoot, turn his back."
Between 1994 and 1998 she dated Depp and their split was one of the hardest things she`s ever had to go through.
"There`s nobody that`s ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit. I believed what he said. Like if I said, ``What do I do?`` - he`d tell me. And that`s what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust,” she told the magazine.
"Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears..,” she added.