Ricky Martin ‘felt numb when came out of the closet’

Last Updated: Nov 02, 2010, 16:18 PM IST

Washington: Ricky Martin has revealed that he felt ‘numb’ when he admitted that he was a homosexual.

In an interview on ‘The Oprah Winfrey Show’, he opened up about his decision to come out that he’s a gay.

"I couldn’t take it anymore, Oprah. I couldn’t take it anymore. It was too painful. But I guess the most important thing is my children. You know, my children. When I was holding them in my arms, I was like, what am I gonna teach them - how to lie? Whoa, that is my blessing right there,” UsMagazine.com quoted Martin as saying.

“And I said hold on a second. Before I decided to become a father, I already accepted who I was and I was happy with who I was. Then, when I was I was holding my children, I said, okay, it’s time to tell the world,” he added.

38-year-old Martin, father to 2-year-old twin sons, Valentino and Matteo, via a surrogate, announced the news in an email last March. It read, “I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man.”

Asked how he felt when he hit the ‘send’ button, Martin told Winfrey, "I felt numb. Numb."

He also said that though he was scared but he also felt relieved.

“But when I realized, okay, I just pressed send, whoo. And then I was alone. I was in my studio alone for a minute. My assistant walked in and I just started crying like a little baby. I started crying. And he had to hold me. He told me, please, he would grab me in the arms – in my arms. He goes, let it go. Let it go. Finally you’re free,” the pop sensation said.

ANI