London: Motorcycle entrepreneur Jesse James, who claims to be in love with his estranged wife Sandra Bullock, says he wanted to get caught while cheating on his spouse.
"When I was doing it, you know, one, I knew it was horrible. It made me feel horrible. And two, I knew I would get caught eventually, and I think I wanted to get caught," contactmusic.com quoted him as saying.
"I don`t think I know for a fact now what it was, you know. I mean, it was me trying to self-sabotage my life."
The 41-year-old, who has three children from a previous relationship, admits he "still loves" Bullock.
"It`s still hard for me to talk about, a little bit, because I still really love her and care about her. I`ve spent my whole life with the kids and with her trying to... protect her from everything, but the most hurt she`s ever been caused is by the person that wanted to protect her. It`s terrible, and she`s going to be hurt for a long time," he said.