London: Singer Jennifer Lopez could not breathe out of anxiety when she decided to divorce her ex-husband Marc Anthony, she has revealed in her memoir, 'True Love'.
The 45-year-old 'Booty' singer, who announced her separation from Anthony in 2011, wrote she suffered from a panic attack just before a photoshoot and she blurted out that she wanted a divorce, reported the Daily Mirror.
"As I sat there getting made up, my heart was beating out of my chest and I felt like I couldn't breathe... I became consumed with anxiety. What was happening to me? I leaped from my chair and said to my dear manager Benny Medina, 'Benny, something is happening! I feel like I'm going crazy.' My mom was there and she rushed to my side too.
"It was one of those moments when you're so scared you can't even scream. In a blur of fear and panic, I looked at Benny and my mother and blurted out the words: 'I don't think I can be with Marc anymore.' Then I burst into tears," the singer wrote.
She also wrote that people thought her life was great with a shining career and a happy family but only she knew that her marriage was falling apart.
"It was out. The thing I feared more than anything in the world. I collapsed into their arms and began to sob. Anybody looking from the outside in would have thought my life was great. I had a husband and two beautiful children. What people didn't know was that life really wasn't that good. My relationship was falling apart and I was terrified," she said.