Washington: Grammy award winning singer Alanis Morissette has revealed that she used food to quash feelings of fear and loneliness when she suffered with an eating disorder in her teens.
The 37-year-old musician battled with eating disorders anorexia and bulimia when she was a teenager and has admitted her struggles with food came from an unhealthy desire to bury her feelings.
“There are often traumas and abuses/neglect that are begging to be healed. Fat can be a way to protect ourselves and survive, a way to control something in a world where everything feels out of control, and a way to stave off profound fear of feeling our feelings,” Contactmusic quoted her as writing in her blog for iVillage.com.
“I often find anxiety, fear, boredom, disappointment, loneliness, excitement and grief to be the top feelings food can attempt to prevent.
Though she has overcome her disorder, she still has a ‘fraught relationship with food and fat’.
“See, my fraught relationship with food and fat has always been a cloaked invitation into a more profound kindness to myself (one I have so often ignored).
“Being kind toward my fragility in the face of a monolithic message of perfectionism and intolerance has not been an easy path - nor, I’m ashamed to say, a consistent one. Writing about it helps,” she added.