`Alexander` reviews left Farrell in depression

London: Actor Colin Farrell admits he went into depression mode after his film "Alexander" didn`t fare well at the box-office and also considered turning his back on acting career. "That was tough. I say tough relative to a charmed life, but I`m not going to apologise for how much it affected me emotionally and psychologically. I was going to walk away from acting. I couldn`t even buy a packet of cigarettes without feeling like I needed to say sorry to the guy behind the counter just in case he happened to see the thing a daily quoted him as saying. Farrell became even more withdrawn following the box office failure of "Miami Vice" in 2006. "I just completely fell to s**t on that one. It was literally the first time I couldn`t say to anyone around me, `Have I been late for work, have I missed any days, have I been hitting my marks?` Because the answers would have been yes, yes, and no... I lost the ability to be confident that I could make a change myself." IANS