Zee Media Bureau/Supriya Jha
Washington: Seeking to bury the hatchet over her past affair with former US President Bill Clinton, Monica Lewinsky has made her confessions and complaints in an article in this month`s issue of Vanity Fair magazine saying, it was high time to “stop tiptoeing around her past”.
Monica`s outbursts over her much hyped affair with ex-US President, come at a time when Bill Clinton`s wife Hillary Clinton is considering to contest the US Presidential elections 2016.
Reacting to Hillary`s recently publicised comments on Monica, in which she was referred to as "narcissistic loony toon", she said if that were “the worst thing she said, I should be so lucky”.
In a bitter retort to Hillary, Monica said that she finds it "troubling" that Hillary Clinton blamed only the woman, also herself, for the illicit relationship and not her husband.
"She may have faulted her husband for being inappropriate, but I find her impulse to blame the Woman - not only me, but herself - troubling,” Monica is quoted as saying.
According to Miss Lewinsky, Mrs Clinton “blamed herself for her husband’s affair (by being emotionally neglectful) and seemed to forgive him”.
Hillary has been mulling over contesting in 2016 presidential elections, and Monica`s latest outpourings might dent her chances.
However, clarifying her jottings in the May 8 issue of Vanity fair, she says she hopes that “perhaps by sharing my story... I might be able to help others in their darkest moments of humiliation.”
Monica says she was moved to tears over the suicide of Tyler Clementi, the 18-year-old Rutgers University student, who ended his life in humiliation after his video of kissing another man went public.
She said that when the news came, it was like reliving 1998 for her mother who didn`t leave Monica alone, fearing suicide attempts by her in wake of “the shame, the scorn, and the fear” heaped on her.
Calling herself as “possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet,” Monica says that when the reports of her affair with Clinton were doing the rounds in 1998, she did feel strong temptations to commit suicide, though she never made attempts to end her life.
Referring to the hat worn by her during 1998 when she was 22 and stained garments used as evidence against Bill Clinton, Monica said that it was time to “burn the beret” and “bury the blue dress”, Vanity Fair quotes her.
Though saying that her boss – Bill Clinton – did take advantage of her when she was a 22 year-old White House intern, Monica does not forget to categorically accept that it was a consensual affair and that she does regret it.
She also says: “I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton. Let me say it again: I. Myself. Deeply. Regret. What. Happened.”
Monica said, “Any ‘abuse’ came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position. . . . The Clinton administration, the special prosecutor’s minions, the political operatives on both sides of the aisle, and the media were able to brand me.”
Alos, objecting to the lyrics of Beyonce`s hit number “Partition”, Monica made it clear that it was more of a mistake by Bill Clinton and not just her`s saying, “Thanks, Beyoncé, but if we’re verbing, I think you meant ‘Bill Clinton’d all on my gown,’ not ‘Monica Lewinsky’d.”