Washington, June 13: Bill told me that Monica Lewinsky was an intern he had befriended two years earlier when she was volunteering in the West Wing during the government shutdown. He had talked to her a few times, and she had asked him for some job-hunting help... He said she had misinterpreted his attention, which was something I had seen happen dozens of times before...
I questioned Bill over and over about the story. He continued to deny any improper behaviour but to acknowledge that his attention could have been misread...
For me, the Lewinsky imbroglio seemed like just another vicious scandal manufactured by political opponents...
Early the next morning, Saturday, August 15, Bill woke me up just as he had done months before... He told me for the first time the situation was much more serious that he had previously acknowledged. He now realised he would have to testify that there had been an inappropriate intimacy. He told me that what had happened between them had been brief and sporadic. He couldn't tell me seven months ago, he said, because he was too ashamed to admit it and he knew how angry and hurt I would be.
I could hardly breathe. Gulping for air I started crying and yelling at him, "What do you mean? What are you saying? Why did you lie to me?"



I was furious and getting more so by the second. He just stood there saying over and over again, "I am sorry..." Up until now I only thought that he'd been foolish for paying attention to the young woman and was convinced that he was being railroaded. I couldn't believe he would do anything to endanger our marriage and our family. I was dumdfounded, heartbroken and outraged that I'd believed him at all.