I was utterly grief-stricken: McElhone

London, Feb 08: Actress Natascha McElhone has finally opened up over the sudden death of her husband and said she was left "utterly grief-stricken, bereft and devastated". Martin Kelly died following a heart attack in his London home in May last year. McElhone gave birth to their third son five months after he died, reports contactmusic.com.

She said: "Everyone`s been saying `I don`t know how you can manage on your own, with the baby` but it`s because of that, in a funny way, it`s been manageable. You can`t hole up and not get out of bed." She is determined to get over her grief because she believes she has no right to be sad. "I`m really OK, through necessity, I think. Do you know, I`m just terribly grateful for everything I have. I don`t think I have any right to feel miserable all the time. I don`t know why, it`s just happened to me that, aside from feeling utterly grief-stricken and bereft and devastated, the chinks and shards of light that shine through are so strong and so buoyant I can`t ignore them. Thank God for that. I don`t know why that is - that they`re so bright that they reach me. Thus far, anyway." IANS