Ricky Martin finds his memoir too painful to read

Washington: Gay singer Ricky Martin has admitted that he hasn’t read his own memoir as it brings back painful memories of the sexuality secret he kept hidden from fans for years. The ‘Sound Loaded’ singer publicly came out as a gay man in the early part of 2010 just before he released his tome, ‘Me’, in which he chronicled his struggles to come to terms with his own identity and shared the truth with the world.

But although the singer’s memoir was released over a year ago, Martin claims that he still hasn’t revisited the book as the project evokes bad memories.

“I had it (book) open on my computer and I started reading a paragraph and had to stop. I had to stop. It reminded me of the place I was when I was writing it,” a website has quoted him as telling a magazine.

However, the pop star is also stated that he is glad that he chronicled his experiences because he knew it would help others.

“When I released the book, the people I met doing the in-store signings were like, ‘Please allow me to give you a hug. You have no idea what you’ve done for me.’ I had no idea it was going to be like that. When I started writing this book I just wanted to let go of a lot of things I was holding within,” he added.